EXCITING NEWS – MY BOOK BONKERS IS BEING LAUNCHED IN AMERICA!!!!
A sentence I thought I would NEVER be sharing with you all but it’s true….Bonkers is making it’s way across the pond and the thought that the book will be helping mums or should I say “moms” on the other side of the world fills me with immense pride and has me singing the American national anthem around the house non stop!
However, it hasn’t all been a walk in the (central) park and it still continues to be an uphill battle to get the message of the book out there and to get it in front of fellow mums as I am classed as an “unknown author” and a “non-celebrity mum” therefore, the marketing budget assigned to my book is zero and the help I get in promoting the book is mainly from myself and you loyal core of fans of the book and my blog (I am forever grateful to you all). Therefore, in the age of social media making us all believe that everyone but ourselves is successful and that life is downright shiny and perfect I wanted to share with you all my story behind getting the book to where it is today to show you all that it hasn’t just miraculously happened and that just because you get a book published doesn’t mean that everything then falls into place with it all. It is and continues to be a hard slog but I keep slogging away in the hope to reach and help as many mums and moms as possible.
So here goes, for those of you who don’t know me, I am a UK mum of two little girls (aged 4.5 and 6 years old) and a survivor of two battles with my maternal metal health.
Following the birth of both my daughters I was left fighting my way through severe Postnatal Depression and the terrifying illness known as Postpartum Psychosis. The Psychosis, unfortunately, started with me seeing demons flying around my home threatening to kill my baby girl. And then led to me having what I not-so-fondly refer to, as “my dark stranger” living with me. This manifested itself, into a dark, shadowy figure, who would turn up unannounced around my home, making my blood run cold with fear and spitefully whispering to me that I was an unfit mother and that my girls would be better off without me. To say that this time of motherhood was akin to living in my own personal horror story, would be an understatement and to this day I still find myself talking about my experiences and thinking “Wow, did that really happen to me” and questioning “How on earth did I get through it?”.
But, it did happen to me and I did get through it, and now, fully recovered I still struggle with the knowledge that my illness and my lack of prior knowledge of maternal mental health resulted in me losing many precious moments and memories with my beautiful girls. The thought of other mums going through this and suffering at the hands of this illness during a time that should be one of joy (sleepless nights and sore nipples aside) was one that lit a fire in my belly to “do something” to help other women.
Therefore, during my recovery I started to write about my experiences which quickly turned into a blog and then a book to help other mums. However, after a two year struggle to get the book published and two years of being rejected as my book was deemed “ too honest” and “too risky” to publish as I wasn’t a celebrity mum, I was left feeling that I was not good enough and decided to halt any dream I had of becoming a published author.
A year later, I found myself, with a second baby on my hip and spring cleaning my kitchen when I came across my old manuscript amongst a pile of old magazines and bill reminders and decided; “To heck with the publishers not thinking it’s good enough” and decided to publish the first part on my blog. All in the thought that if what I wrote helped just one mum, then that would be good enough for me.
It received a phenomenal response from fellow mums and off the back of that was picked up by the national press, calling it the parenting book that needed to be published. This, in turn got the attention of leading UK publishers Harper Collins and Penguin, who then went on to offer me a publishing deal. The irony, of the fact that a year earlier both had rejected my book was not lost on me! Life, at times, works in mysterious ways!
It was released here in the UK by Harper Collins last year and became a best seller on Amazon with a 5 Star review ranking. It’s been billed by fellow mums and maternal mental health professionals as “A book to be shared the world over”, “A book that will save lives” and “A book that made me feel proud to be a woman”. It’s been used as research for the awesome Louis Theroux documentary “Mothers on the Edge” and most importantly has helped lots of mums through the darker times of motherhood. It is now due to be released in America on 7th May in time for the U.S Mother’s Day. Something I am still pinching myself about.
I therefore, would like to say a massive thank you to everyone of you who has supported the book so far and would like to say to anyone who is trying to follow a dream but keeps getting set back, to anyone who feels they aren’t good enough and to anyone feeling as if they will never “get there” – just you keep doing what you’re doing, don’t be put off by the set backs or the people who tell you it can’t be done and never take “No” for an answer when it comes to something you believe in!
If you would like to support the book as it makes it’s way across the pond, if you are an American blogger or are an organisation who works with moms in America and would like to receive a copy of the book then please get in touch – firstname.lastname@example.org.